Speechless

I just.... I don't even know.
What a world.

Advantage

And so May is gone. You know, I forgot to mention, the 27th was the half birthday of this blog. 6 months already? Can't believe it. Somehow I've stuck with it.
I know I haven't had much writing lately... honestly, being in such a good mood makes it hard to write. Being in a good mood, I've been more willing to go out, improvise, and do whatever the hell I want with whoever the hell I want. And that tends to be from the time I wake up to much past the sun setting, with little to no time in between.
Three days of school left, holy hell. Three more days until I'm halfway done with high school. And I don't think I would have changed a single thing.
Anywho, more reflections later - once I'm actually done. Unfortunately, there's still exams.
So I promised you all some real writing today, and I tried; don't really know if I succeeded. Here you go.

So maybe we weren't sober,
Pushed into that icy water
That brushed away the sweat
Gathering on my forehead,
Giving me a rush
As my feet struggled
To grip onto a stable rock,
Failing at first,
Slipping on slick moss.
Maybe chemicals were messing with my head
As you took my arms
And threw me in.
Your eyes were especially green in the sunlight,
And your smile was still
Plastered there
When I resurfaced.
My clothes hung from my body;
Dripping, useless rags.
Hell, we didn't care,
I peeled them off and
Tossed them on shore.
Consistency is what they call it -
Sometimes you have to break it,
Move off the stone path
And jump in the moving water that runs alongside it,
Taunting you for so long
Until you finally give in.
You ask me
How I would feel
If you let me fall,
But it doesn't even matter,
Because you wouldn't let that happen.
Turn the impossible
To possible,
Let me fall into the water, into you,
And stop me
If I drift too far away.
Come kiss the stars,
Catch a hundred fireflies at once
And let them light the way
As we walk in a different direction this time.

Yay!

So close, I can feel it.
And you're making it so much easier, faster, livelier, better.
I'll have some writing tomorrow.

Truth be told

I'm dizzy.

Magic

God, what a great day.

So what if I got pushed into the Huron River, fully clothed, by someone I've talked to once or twice?

So what if I was supposed to be at school today?

So what if I skipped the visitors pass and walked right in?

It was awesome.

The way she is, the way she are

Never let

your feet

run faster

than your shoes.

Alive or dead, and no in between

Bambambambam. Bam.

Tuesday Tellings, week 12

My secret is that I'm absolutely terrified of going deaf because music is the one thing that keeps me going. Keeps me from doing a lot of things. But in a good way.

Not enough time

wasted film,

where have you gone?

snapshots of

this journey

you all hold,

ready to burn

at any second.

you're not fooling anyone.

where have you gone?

From the moment I saw you, I knew that -

Saturday Saturday Saturday.

4 day week, 3 day week, exams, done.

Just a breath away.

Intrepid

Today is one of those days
When the fear of god is most evident,
And raindrops channel their anger
By pelting to the ground
Quickly accompanied by
A flash of lightning,
Attempting to distract you
From this vulnerability.
It is days like these
When we want to
Clear our mind,
But how can we break free
When the window is smudged,
Concealing the enemies outside?
Our feeble, swishing tails
Pale in comparison to the
Wings of freedom,
Constantly taunting us by flying
Just out of reach.
So we will wait
For the day when
We find the strength
To jump
Out of the water
And catch freedom's wings.

I think it's time.

Uno mas

One more day, but I'm already givin' up

I'm bruised, I'm exhausted, I've barely got a grip on the edge of the dropoff.

What more do you need to do?

Color my world

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Oh, oh, and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Oh, oh, and I'm just waiting til the firing stops
Oh, oh, and I'm just waiting til the shine wears off...

Tuesday Tellings, week 11

Hey baby look at me go, from zero to hero.

I've been working on figuring out where I should be focusing. Although it's difficult, we all have to find out what it is at some point, right?

Another Post Secret from this week's Sunday Secrets is what I'd like to be my secret for this week. The front of the postcard reads: "I have a story inside of me, but it feels too big to tell." The inside says "The fear is crippling me, but not writing it is driving me insane."

To summarize it, I guess I have all these things I want to share, but no one really to share it with.

Just waiting for the right time.

This week is going to be very very busy, so I don't know how much writing I will post. Apologies in advance!

Brain dead

Sugaaa free Red Bull.

...What is going on?