Spur of the moment

"Tell me something good."

".....we're alive."

Coffee shop romance

I've come to the realization that my life is like a car being steered by a reckless driver; I'm either in cruise control or slamming on the brakes.

My mind's been swimmin',
But it sure feels like I'm drowning.
Please be my life jacket,
Wrap yourself around me and help me float.
Bring me back to shore,
Because in this panic,
I have lost
All sense of direction.
When I stop hearing,
Point out where I can heal.
And when I stop seeing,
Take my hand,
Whisper to me what to do.
And when I go numb,
Sing me a song to bring
Warmth back into my heart.
You can heal me,
But until you start trying,
I'll just sit here slowly falling apart.

Time off

Do you ever find yourself connecting with someone on such a deep level, enough that you swear your thoughts, triumphs, and struggles are all in sync?

But yet, you have never even met this person?

It's crazy what the world does to us these days.

If you're losin your high then smoke again

Future's lookin reeeeeeeeeeeeeal good.

Backbone

Just wanted to say... I'm here for you.

Can you be there for me too?

Reverse psychology

Twisted and turning,
Beginning to run didn't help
'Cause her footsteps only echoed,
Falsely forming the presence of another,
And so in turn
Her heart
Sprinted,
Outrunning her feet
Until it felt like bursting.
She stopped, her chest heaving
Like churning waves, but her mouth
Was as dry
As a desert.
A light flickered, momentarily
Seizing her attention, leaving behind
Her breathing
For a second.
The firefly lit up in front of
The streetlight
And for a moment they were identical,
Illuminated,
In unison,
Together painting a new dimension
Purely of light.
Absorbed in this world,
She shuts her eyes until
She sees spots, hoping that maybe
When she opens them again
She'll be home.
Day opened its young eyes first.
There is no sun, but I can see light on the horizon.

You thought I was kidding, I thought you were stupid.

Walking, wandering, one day in the woods,
Sun spots like you see
In the movies, tracing closely, copying
The path I walked.
An old tree sat there.
Silent and simultaneously telling a thousand tales
With its scarred skin.
Peeling but still alive,
Reeling but at peace,
Feeling but out of touch
From the rest of us.
A ladder, never given life, led a path
Up the tree
But I couldn't see the top,
Craning my head like we did in
New York City, holding hands
And struggling to see
The sky.
But this forest is another kind
Of city,
Disintegrating instead of expanding.

Favor

Hi. I think I owe some apologies!

As you most likely realized, I was gone for two weeks, heading to a place I once loved and thought I was going to feel lost in for the first time, but shortly after arriving I jumped right in and truly experienced the phrase "having the time of my life." And that was primarily thanks to all the wonderful people that I genuinely love now and cannot wait to see again.

So... mmhm. Yeah. Now I am at "home," fully launched into preseason, so needless to say I am a little busy. I wrote a lot today, so that might make up for some of it, but I can't make any guarantees that I will give you something new every day. But I promise promise promise to pick this up more once school starts!

And one last thing - a late happy 8-month birthday to this blog. Nine's coming up soon!

These bittersweet goodbyes they give,
A bad aftertaste in your heart.
But with their hands
And with their hearts
They will catch your tears,
Erase them but still leaving a trace -
A warm scar,
Reminding of you of this place you call home
And now leave behind,
Unsure but hopeful of return.
Your body departs
But your soul will forever stay
With the gently lapping waves
Of the lake,
And the whispers of Mattimuro.
Driving away,
You slip on sunglasses
To soften your stares on what is
Ahead. Your tears have dried
But that scar remains,
Still beating in your heart -
That place looks harsh out there, but you think
To yourself, reminded of next summer -
"I like the way the world looks behind these lenses."

Departure

This morning, I woke up
Feelin brand new and I jumped up
Feelin my highs, and my lows
In my soul, and my goals
Just to stop smokin, and stop drinkin
And I've been thinkin - I've got my reasons
Just to get by, just to get by

I've lost all track of time

You've got me in circles

Hey, my name is Carrie and I have cried ten times

in the past twenty-four hours.

So... the solution? Take me home again.

Where ya gonna go? Salvation is here.